it's you and me.

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

im so damn fucking pissed.the prob IS YOU NOT US..okay..today is just not my day.today, i brought the wrong fone.not charged.cant sms to help me pull thru the 9 hrs of cca. then..like at a ensmeble, our instructor called us out.us including my guitar clique-angela,pohyi, and me. then after that we knew something was wrong.cos if he wanted to call out our grp, it will include some other ppl.my clique is those that very dun like him one.not like SOME stuck up ppl.stucking up to ppl don bring u anywhere..then after that he made us sat down.then he asked us if we knew why we were there and of course NO la.like we dun do mind-reading.then after that he asked angela and poh yi about the chalet thingy that they were not responsible.so im like wth am i here la.then he was scolding my seniors when it's so not their fault! like everyone just went off and left the chalet like there. all the valuables were there so angela and poh yi stayed for like2 hrs.to wait for those ppl hu just went off without saying anything.and he blamed them for going off after waiting for 2 hrs.like it's their prob.not my seniors.so after that we fought back and talk back and he was kinda pissed.alright.then after that he asked both of them to go first cos he wanted to talk to me alone.fine.then after that he was like blaming me for actually "joining" this clique and on and on about how i was influence and change.ppl change! for the worse and better.u dun stick to the same boring you!!and when the seniors are out for o level, tiffany and me will be in charge.like if his not happy with me, just strip me off my post. I DUN CARE! then he said some ass crap about leaving a good impression about myself for others in future when im out of sch.like i said I DUN CARE.im out of sch man. I LEFT SCH so it's nt my prob.only ppl him like to gossip wad! he keeps hinting im with bad company.no one is bad in nature.he just couldn't see the good part of it!!!!!! argh..i was so pissed. and he went to talk about like he in army and started swearing cos of influence. is it my prob?! NO!...so why is he blaming me? and he is actually putting the blame on me that my grp is not together if my grp is not together..MY FAULT ARH? what happen to the other ppl's fault.and my senior scolded him saying misunderstanding happens.and both party is at fault.not us. and he just shut up.then he said yah..and i was gonna say " then why are you like putting all the blame on us?!?!" but i just shut up..he scolded my clique seniors cos he just have no one else to blame for his own actions so wad if poh yi is the senior most.and angela is the president and me is A.S.L? dun like then strip our post la. doesn't mean everything is for us to blame! everyone is responsible rite so im thinking of having another talk with him
i wanna see wad he got to say for himself.it was a chalet.i dinn go ....overseas.then had many ppl.then quite late already, all rushed to go home and those hu were not blame went to bowling...BOWLING! shesh! and cos there were so many valuables left unattended, angela and poh yi stayed to lo after! they waited for 2 hrs and no one.then they passed the chalet key to someone at the chalet.then went off.cos angela's parents were scolding her....and she got scolded for that.she even cleared most of the mess and our instructor clear a bit and he wants to claim credit for it he wants too much to himself..when his fun, his relle fun..when he is unreasonable.he is relle good at that.like today we played alot of games..instead of playing guitar..was fun...but he got that other side of him going on-two faced la..argh! so pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..and he blames me for clique-ing with them..and when we have ensemble, some times my clique laugh cos we got something funny.AND HE SCOLDED US FOR THT! i mean.if he want to scold us, scold us infornt of the ensemble and see wad ppl thinks about it la.go oout then scold us! WTF...he thinks i got bad influences with them.we got scolded for laughing..WOW!!so it's an offence to laugh..yah...and cos the first time i was laughing,(with other seniors) i was laughing at something he said and did.and now...he think whenever i laugh, it's about him! man, i gt better things to do.i got my own life to live man!!..i was about to shout and him " THE WHOLE DOESN"T REVOLVE AROUND YOU!",god i shld have done that..i mean.i got scolded for laughing, scolded for being with more ppl ard me.next thing i know, im scolded for breathing his air!his always like pointing me out..whenever i laugh.he notice..whenever ppl laughs.he doesn't care.it's just SO UNFAIR!i was so tempted to kick his balls at caption ball playing todae.and the ball actually did hit his nuts! haha!yah..and cos playing makes my fingers bruise, i wrap the thin bandage ard my fingers..that's wad we all do during SYF...and he just notice me..when ppl sitting ard me. all got it too..he just pointing it out on the first day it already hurts..and when i was like frowning and saying my hand damn pain, he took over my role for playing part..cos im playing a solo part in the whole ensemble.so he took over and helped me play for awhile so my hand can rest...then today he ask me "so serious arh?" i was about to say yah.u try playing for 8 hrs st8 after not playing for a month and tell me if it hurts....he was saying it in the joking way.and im fine with that..but it's still so unfair...i just summarised wad happen..u dun noe how pissed my guitar clique was okay we were like so pissed.and storming our way pass them.and when i left the toking and went back into the classroom, there were basketballs ard for later games..i just started kicking them so hard and screaming my head off.my seniors did the same too..oh ya..today sth funny happened....cos one of the games was like captain balls rite.then he was so enthu.then one of my seniors ask him " u never play captain balls before arh" then he was like " yah.once or twice" then my senior ask " then why u so enthu for wad?"that was embarrassing for him..talk about deprieved childhood..

fading away.
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